2002-09-12 - 6:50 a.m.
(unprioritized & no timeframe attached):
1. Finish Urban Sociology reading (from past two weeks)
2. Clear off desk: papers you no longer need, books laying open upside-down, used coffee mugs and cups, beer bottles, empty containers of creamy substances (spreadable cheese, almond butter)
3. Update personal organizer
4. Do dishes in kitchen sink
5. Deal with -- one way or another -- stereo problem that causes it to cut out whenever desk is shaken
6. Laundry, specifically the pants you're wearing now, which you probably stained, flipping a pen, getting ink all over your hands and then wiping it on them.
7. Quit smoking
8. Write letter to SAC chair saying you, personally, can't devote any effort to advertising because you already worked on the Catalyst for 22 of 48 hours from Sunday to Tuesday and your attempts at finding a balance between Catalyst work, academic work, and personal life have been cruelly mocked, so if the SAC wants to turn off the funding for the Catalyst they'll have to do so because your not going to kill yourself to jump through SAC hoops. (Probably do not include anything after "22 of 48 hours from Sunday to Tuesday")
9. Write two critiques for Maria to finish Urban Anthropology (Deadline for completion: August 2002)
10. Subscribe to Sarasota Herald-Tribune
11. Talk to housemates and former occupant of your room about the cat. Explain that while you do have affection for the cat you can't deal with seeing it held prisoner in the house anymore, and we have several options: spay it and let it go outside; find a new home/location for it, which doesn't have to be less confining but does have to be something you're not responsible for; status quo (seriously, this is an option).
12. Get Professor Doenecke to connect you with his friend at the Ringling Museum; name-drop from Annapolis and generally charm to integrate yourself as a participant, or at least a first-hand observer, in the restructuring of one of the most significant museums in Florida. Get tons of thesis material dumped into your lap.
13. Get some cocaine
14. Re-read "Organizing for Dummies"
15. Get up the nerve to ask Regina why she's so interested in child porn. Try for non-canned answer, since she probably has one well-rehersed.
16. Burn (that is, set fire to) your "Civilization" games; while you have resisted their temptation, they remain somewhere in this room.
17. Drop by or otherwise contact the first-year girl who you're interested in and who seems somewhat interested in you. Basically, figure out what the hell to do next since she was okay with it when you kissed her at the Kiss Your Crush wall, at 5:30 in the morning when Palm Court was empty and the two of you had been talking for hours, and earlier she displayed the slightest bit of enthusiasm for you, and didn't push you away then or the two occasions since then when you ran into each other, and that doesn't seem to be something she has a problem doing, but you never know.
18. Avoid thinking about the fact that the girl of item 17 reminds you of a girl you knew at TIP and had a big crush on. Don't think about your un-air conditioned room, the stillness of the heat, lying on the bed and feeling teenage longing, only you did not kiss your crush, you blew it. Avoid theorizing about adolescent lust charged and never released. Mention, only if the opportunity presents itself, that the paths of you and the girl of item 17 crossed at Duke, because although you attended the program at Duke's East Campus program different years, you went back your "fifth-year" when you were in a different program on West Campus and went back for a dance, and she was there. Definitely don't mention that at one of those dances you kissed some random girl who happened to be there, as well.
19. Avoid thinking about the fact that the girl of item 17 reminds you of hunter, and that you first met her when you saw her across Palm Court and because of her silhouetted mannerisms, mistook her for him. Avoid thinking about various psychological theories concerning mannerisms, especially not in reference to yourself. Don't mention that you considered trying to hook them up -- or at least thought that would be a good idea, because, of course people with the same personality should be together -- but then decided to just go for it yourself, because at this point almost any girl would help you starve off this creeping sense of mortality. When you finished furnishing your room, you looked at the bare walls between the bookcases, and a line echoed through your mind: How should I / fill the empty spaces / where we used to talk / how should I complete the wall." Jump to conclusion provided by subsequent track, accompanied by glace to unoccupied full-size bed.
20. Pursue psychiatric help.
